Friday, January 27, 2017

Choosing Peace

KK's next MRI is on Wednesday and scanxiety tried to rear its ugly head this week.

When I woke KK up to go to the bathroom before I went to bed on Wednesday, we noticed that her right eye was "bugging out". As I laid down, I prayed, "God, I am choosing to sleep in peace."

The other morning, KK mentioned something about seizures. I asked her why she was thinking about seizures. She said she just shivered. I asked her what she meant. She pointed to her left side and said she just shivered on that side. In the past, her seizures have started on the right side due to the location of her tumor, so I chose to proceed with our day in peace.

On our way to IV Vitamin C treatment on Friday, KK ate breakfast in the car. About half way down the Mass Pike, she said she felt "warm" -- her signal that she is about to throw up. She pulled an emesis bag out of her med bag as I continued to drive (so thankful that we didn't hit any traffic during morning rush hour). KK explained that her stomach felt yucky and confirmed that she didn't have any pressure in her head. When we arrived at The Rothfeld Center, KK went right to the bathroom and threw up. She immediately felt better and I chose to continue her treatments in peace.

Could these indicate tumor growth? Could apoptosis be happening? Could the Hyperbaric Oxygen Therapy be a factor in all of this? I just don't know. We may have a better idea of what is going on in KK's brain after the MRI on Wednesday. What I do know is that I would much rather choose to live in God's peace than in scanxiety today.

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, 
for tomorrow will worry about itself. 
Each day has enough trouble of its own." 
~ Matthew 6:34


Terri said...

You are choosing to honor Him and bring Him glory - love you much!

Heidi Peterson said...

A great choice! Praying that God will greatly bless you both in that.