Sunday, August 14, 2016

In My Head or KK's

Over the last couple weeks, I have been worried about KK's vision. I couldn't explain why and I had no idea if it was just in my head. I brought up my concerns when we were at Dana Farber last Tuesday, but KK's vision didn't seem too off that day and they weren't too concerned at the time.

Right after church today, KK experienced right arm weakness and slow, slurred speech. When I asked her to squeeze my hands, she was barely able to do so with her right hand. I asked Pastor Derek to come and pray with us, then I brought her home. She took an Epsom salt bath and a 2 hour nap. When she woke up, her strength was getting better, she wasn't slurring her speech, and her eyes seemed brighter.

There is so much going through my head right now...

  • Is this all in my head or is there something serious going on in KK's? 
  • I hate PTSD.
  • It has been KK’s vision that has tipped me off that something has been wrong multiple times throughout this journey.
  • She had a super busy, non-stop weekend and I hope the symptoms today were due to exhaustion.
  • I was (and am) worried that today's symptoms are a precursor to a seizure. I have the baby monitor on full volume for the first time in months.
  • I am worried that there is tumor growth. This worry is fueled by the fact that she has been out of "cancer-fighting range" for the last 2 months.
  • Because she has been below "cancer-fighting range", we have increased her vitamin C from 50 to 112.5 grams over the last month. This may be causing swelling that leads to cell death (apoptosis).
  • KK's next MRI is in 10 days...will I be able to last that long?

I would appreciate your prayers for peace, wisdom, apoptosis, and complete healing.


Terri said...

You know I'm praying - we all are - and will continue! Love you both!

Judy Bleau said...

Praying for you both, Tanya and KK <3

Mindy said...

Olivia and I are praying for you both.

Olivia Cyr said...

Praying for peace and healing

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