Decorating a birthday cake for Jesus was hard...
KK struggled to squeeze the frosting onto the cake. I came behind her to squeeze with her, but it was too difficult for her and she gave up.
Christmas dinner was hard...
While sitting around the table with my parents and KK, I said, "I need every one to tell me something good about 2015." All we were able to say was that KK was with us.
Opening Christmas gifts was hard...
KK wrote a sweet letter to me that Jenna framed beautifully. I could barely read it out loud.
The Monday after Christmas was hard...
While KK was in the bathroom, her Physical Therapist asked me how our Christmas was. I choked back tears as I whispered, "Hard." She looked at me and said, "But she's doing so well." I completely lost it and said, "But she may not be here next Christmas." Then she asked, "Is this cancer that aggressive?" I sobbed as I nodded. She sat next to me and gave me a hug.
A 26-hour headache was hard...
A headache will never just be a headache even if I know there are legitimate causes for it.
Going to see Star Wars: The Force Awakens was hard...
When KK said, "Awww!" at the end of the movie because she wants to know what happens next, I held back tears because there are two more parts to the trilogy that she may never see.
I would really like to NOT have any hard moments in 2016.
If that is not to be, then...
- I will cry when things are hard, because there are times when I just can't hold back the tears.
- I will pray when things are hard, because I know I have a God who understands.
Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has gone through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are--yet was without sin. Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.~ Hebrews 4:14-16
- I will trust when things are hard that God has a perfect plan for KK's life and cancer can't change that. I know God can heal her completely. If He chooses to do so, we will give Him all the glory. If He chooses not to, though it may be hard, we both want to give Him the glory.
3 comments:
Jesus is shining so brightly through both of you as He carries you through every hard moment. He is faithful and will continue to be glorified. Praying for His strength and His mercy and His love to be evident. And that the grief that you are already walking through would not be greater than His peace that passes understanding. Love you both so much!
You two are so incredible. Thank you for sharing and being so open. Love to both of you today and throughout the year.
I am praying that 2016 is a much better year for you both. But, if it is not, please know you have friends who will cry and pray with you.
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