Wednesday, October 19, 2016

I Can't Change That

I have made a lot of decisions since the latest symptoms of swelling appeared: waiting it out at home, putting KK on dexamethasone, weaning her off dexamethasone, resuming IVC treatments, asking for a reduced dose of vitamin C. I have asked people to pray for God to give me wisdom and discernment as I have felt like I was literally making life and death decisions for KK. 

At the beginning of this journey, KK and I talked about how God knows the number of her days and cancer can't change that. I have to remind myself that God knows the number of her days and decisions I make can't change that.

4 comments:

Terri said...

You are doing a fabulous job making decisions to help KK fight this and to enjoy each day as much as possible. Praying for you that you will continue to take each decision to the Father and allow HI'm to guide you. Trusting that He has you both in the palm of His hand.

Heidi Peterson said...

You are right to remind yourself that God is, indeed, in control, and that it's not all on you! He is quite able to guide you, even when you don't hear an audible voice and are not sure exactly which way to go on some decision. You are doing all the right things, seeking God's will and seeking advice from KK's medical caregivers. Continuing to pray for you both, including for your peace.

Judy Bleau said...

Praying for both of you... Wisdom and healing and peace.

Susan said...

I concur fully with the comments above!! You are doing such a wonderful job to care for KK physically, emotionally and spiritually. Love you both.